Yes I’m overweight, fat, obese, unhealthy, unhappy, blah, and just plain not feeling it! But I’m also a mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. Over the years I’ve tried every diet and trick you can imagine. I’ve tried pills, shakes, diets, programs, severe calorie restriction, and on and on and on. I’ve even tried exercising and eating healthy. That works well as long as you stick with it. I’m more of a “gimme results RIGHT NOW” kinda girl. I want to see it work. I want the pill that says “melt fat while you sleep” to actually work. I want the results without hard work. I want it to come easy and without all the bad stuff…like having to sweat.
I have found that this is just not going to happen. I have to do the hard work. I have to watch what I eat. Eat the right things. Don’t eat the “wrong” things. And exercise! I’ve always hated sweating. My mom has a story she loves to tell people about this even though she knows it embarrasses the crap outta me. We won’t get into that now, though.  And the remark about not eating “wrong” things-don’t get me wrong. I subscribe to the theory that you shouldn’t deny yourself anything (unless it’s illegal that is) you should use moderation and self-control. And those are things I’m learning now.
So that’s why I’m here. This is my journey. The journey to the thin healthy girl that lives inside me. I’ll use this space to
  • update on my quest to get healthy
  • vent about life in general
  • talk about things I’m learning
  • ask questions so maybe you can teach me along the way
  • talk about weight loss and all that goes with it
I saw a movie a while ago and the lead female part was Reese Witherspoon. Her character was thin and beautiful as an adult but as a teenager she was overweight. Her boyfriend sees a picture of her from highschool and makes some comment about her being overweight and she says “I ate my feelings”. It goes on from there but that really struck me. I have a lot of things that I don’t say, things that maybe I should but I don’t want to hurt other people’s feelings. I have many things bottled up and I feel I need to release them. I think for a long time I’ve “eaten my feelings” and I want to stop doing that. I think for me the best way to do this is to try to get those emotions out of my head and heart. So, yeah, there might be some pretty gory childhood details that end up here. I hope no one gets offended or hurt by these things but I have to get rid of them. I have to find the real me. So I guess this blog will be to help me get healthy physically and emotionally.
I expect parts will be fun and some will be not so fun. But I think all in all it will be quite a ride! So I hope you will join me on the roller coaster. Hold on it’s going to be a bumpy ride!!!